I WON'T GO ANOTHER DAY WITHOUT YOU..

I just realized how big the world is..

Though a plane may take you to a place thousand miles away, there are still places that you can't get near to.

The world is bigger than we ever think of. I can travel around the world, visit a lot of countries, but I can never go to each corner of these places. And that only gives me the thought of: I WILL NEVER KNOW AND SEE EVERYTHING. This world will be keeping its mysteries and secrets forever.

Sometimes, a person may die with a lot of unspoken thoughts inside him or maybe, the person who loves him may have a lot of burdens kept for a long time.

It's either the person will die without any chance to speak with the person he loves or someone may regret of not telling the things he wanted to say and now it's too late, or for the worse scenario, the person had the chance, but didn't do anything and he's continue dying inside because until now, words were unspoken and he thinks, it'll be unsaid until he's buried. 

I never knew the value of time for the past years. I just live for today and prepare for tomorrow.

And now, I wanted to go back to the time when I can write all those memories I never had the chance to cherish.

They say we have to live and prepare for the future. Yes, it's true, I agree. But me, living for what will happen tomorrow isn't just the thing, I live for what I've learned in the past. I live for the time I didn't live. I live for the things I didn't understand.

A plane flight may take you to a destination you want to see and/or to visit people like friends/relatives somewhere.. But can it take me to the place where I can visit and talk or just even see my sister again?

The answer is "NO". It can never take me to heaven.

I dream a lot and I have future plans.. And she will always be part of it.

The world is bigger than we ever thought of. It is not only about the land and water.. How big a place is.. How many miles separates two countries..

The people, time and every little thing counts in!

We will never know and see everything but we will be given the chance to know what will help us understand and see what the world is all about.

I miss my Sister so much! :'(

RIP: + Melissa D. Buencamino

August 13, 1976 - April 23, 2007

Ate, 35 years old ka na sa Saturday! :) We'll be visiting you, hopefully. :>

I love you. I know you're just somewhere in the world. :)

Btw, I wanna share this with you:

When I had the chance to bond with Audrey, she heard me call her Mom Ate Yeye. She asked me: "Ate mo si Mommy Yeye?" I answered: "Yes. Si Mommy Yeye mo, Si Mama Mia, si Tito Mike at ako, Si Tita Mae Anne, magkakapatid. Parang kayo ni Shasha. Tapos Mommy namin si Yoya Gaye tapos Daddy naman si Lolo mo."

She counts every person with her fingers then suddenly asked me:

"Eh si Ate Melissa?"

I was shocked and felt like crying.

I just told her, "Oo, bale 5 kami. Tita mo din siya. Alam mo ba yung picture na nasa frame na nandun sa sala? Siya yun diba?"

She answered: "Ahhh.. Opo, si Tita Melissa.."

Ang saya lang, ang sarap sa feeling na she knows you kahit sa name lang even she never had the chance to meet you. We really believe na siya yung kapalit mo. God has given  family not only Audrey but also Shasha to give joy and feel like those kids are you. :)

When the time comes na nakakaintindi na sila, I promise to share stories about you. Para kilala ka din nila, not only with your name and being our sister.

We miss you a lot!! I know you're always checking us down here. :)

I WON'T GO ANOTHER DAY WITHOUT YOU.. BECAUSE YOU'RE ALWAYS WITH ME. :)

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Dated: August 7, 2011